I'm different ★

Hi guys, let me introduce myself. My name is Tan Gay Peng, you can call me Mokko as it's my nickname which is given by my sister. Why is my name Mokko? I'll tell you in the next post. So, stay tune! Ever since I entered secondary school, a lot of people like to laugh & make fun of my name as there's a GAY in between, but who cares? Gay means happy! If you don't know, you can always google search for the meaning or try to search from a dictionary.

I'm different! Totally different from normal people since I was born to this world. And yea, I suffer from Atrial Septal Defect (Jantung Berlubang)  since I was born. People called it as blue baby due to the insufficient oxygen to the body and cause the baby look blue in color.

http://www.fairview.org/healthlibrary/Article/89098 As you can see the red arrow shown above, there's a hold in between right and left atrium which cause the oxygenated blood mix with deoxygenated blood.

Of course, my family is feeling sad when they know that I'm blue baby. But my parents never give me up! My dad as a taxi driver, work hard to support my medical fees and my mum who's fully housewife, took good care of me and my 4 other sisters. It sounds like a harsh life right? But I don't think so. Although at the beginning of my life I have to eat medicine but my parents instead insisted that i undergo operation in order for me to lead a normal person’s life.

Yes, I feel kinda sad now... But I'll continue it. I undergo operation during primary one and it's so dramatically that the operation date fall on my birthday. So, the doctor operated me just like slicing a cake. Haha! The process of checking my heart is fun because I liked to do echo test as I can see something moving on the screen and my body is wipe with a cream. It smell good! The people there is so friendly and I like to play in the kid's room. There's so many toys over there!

Although I was only 7 years-old, when the nurse ask me wear in white color cloth and I start to cry and shout I DON'T WANT! Yea, my six sense hit a BINGO in my mind. The white color "bed" is coming into my ward and I reject to lie on it. No choice, my dad carry me all along the way to operation room and my mum is always beside me. (I hope I can control my tears now)

Once I enter the operation room, my dad put me on the bed and my mum sang some song for me. Lastly, I fall sleep and the surgery is carried out. After getting up, I realized that I have to face the next step of life - to get heal up. Thanks to my family and relative who's always take good care of me. I stopped consume medicine since primary 4 and I'm quite active now.

I'm so lucky that my family is always beside me and make me who I'm today. Although recently I found out my valve is still having some problem, but luckily the doctor said it can be cure if i take medicine. I know I have no choice but I'll definitely take good care of myself.

 My footsteps is my history which create a path in my life. I'm different and I'm happy to be different from other. Don't you think that this made my life differently by have such memorable experience? Although I suffered from this disorder, but due to this disorder, I see things differently and I found out what is family love. Of course, I love my family too. I am who I am. I'm different and I am Mokko Tan.

This "different" make me have different point of view about HEALTY. Sometimes I wonder why do my friends like to drink cold water, soft drink, eat fried chicken and those oily food. I tried to persuade them to have a healthy lifestyle but they refuse to listen but told me we have to enjoy our life. BUT, what if you don't have a healthy body? Will u continue to spoil it? Even though you have a healthy body, why don't you keep it to be healthy and strong? Yup, I know I'm annoying but this is for your own good.

Besides that, I also react differently when I quarrel with friends. Sometimes, I do feel time is short. I don't wanna waste my time on miserable things or moments. So whenever I have conflict with my friends, I'll try my best to explain my point of view and tried to make the atmosphere be softer. Please don't think that I'm going to die! (touch wood) I just feel that time is precious, we should fill it with happiness.

I react weird, I do things and think differently. Cherish what you have, remember the happiness in your life. Always remember, life can't be REDO.